Thursday, June 18, 2009
Moved to : www.littleprincessie.blogspot.com
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Wednesday, June 10, 2009
its the end of another chapter yet the beginning of another...Poly, mass comm... half the semester through..its been quite difficult i guess.. with all the projects and homework piling up.. but i guess its okay bah.. still copable.. nid good fwens to get u thru. hah yay kenzi and brenda. Its a weird thingy, transition from poly to secondary.. its making me miss alot of things.suddenly life is so based on independence, im losing myself. im not that strong. not like other people. Haidie, Very Singer course is coming to an end, just another graduation party and im done with it. even though im not one of those selected, but i tink it was a great time? okayy la. i made a few fwens and they rather nice to me. cause im the youngest? Im not really all that lovable type, im trying hard to at least show sth like that but hah. u guys noe bah. i learnt alot. i grew up. i tink im getting a little different going through all the different things that im exposed to. From Very Singer i guess one of the things that i learn the most is dance... HAH xiaoke lao shi, 不知道你几时 才回来。 hmm.. i guess one thing that i hope for the most is that people in VS3 can remain connected to each other bah, even though we have various lives to live. One thing i must say is that im not really all that sad about not being selected. HAH ever since the start, its quite hopeless la everything to me. Pessimism? nah.. i tink its more of 自己知自己事 。 its a fact that im not good enough and may never be. HAH.. its a difficult route. the course made me realise that maybe im not too suitable to be some taiwan singer or sth. its all bit far fetched and dreamy and im tired of all the competiting. i guess even though nobody said it out but its the truth that everyone has in themselves the dream of being the best and excelling. despite the fun and love we haf, there is still the existence of wanting to succeed to a certain extent. anyway, no need to console me or watever, haha thats the point. :)Im still gonna continue singing la, theres still a long way ahead. now i noe wad my mum meant when she always tell me not to day dream too much about being a star cause its a one out of a million thingy. and now i noe wad xueling lao shi meant by compete wif urself instead of others... wanting to win others is such a tiring thing. i cannot take it. HAH. but yay, i will miss the times we haf in haidie and all the teachers. a note to those who wanna join very singer: 舞台是为准备好的人而设定的。yeps.. so join it when u tink ur ready to take on others.Im actually getting tired of everything, sian? HAH... emptiness. lol. no point. heck care. i dunno. hah.. drifting abit away. hmm is there anything to say..... errr... i miss all of ya. HAH i really dooooo...... i dun wan sch to start so fast. i nid enough rest first. if not im gonna suck badly in school in the continuing semester.. not exactly something that i want. Who am i.that the lord of all the earthwould care to noe my nameand care to feel my hurt. I know im drifting far away..but im not doing anything.why.....my chains are gone,i ve been set freethe lord my shepherdhas ransomed meand like a floodhis mercy reignsamazing loveamazing grace.... nope... something wrong..thats so not right. HAIZNobody knows, how weak i am better than uNobody sees, all of my needs better than uand nobody have, the power to change methe way i was born to be..Jesus be strong in my weaknessEmpower me.....Empower me.. like the rushing river flowing to the seahmm.. nahh.. haizz.shhhhhhhh.............是谁从我天空摘走了星星一转眼 眉头聚满乌云从来快乐悲伤都自己横行忘了我也值得被关心一双手一个梦一路上不断的俯冲痛到忘了要怎么喊痛漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过我的世界是零下的沙漠其实我也想要拥抱的温柔融化这颗坚强的泡沫漫长的等候让人特别失落锋锐寂寞把天空都割破还有谁能够紧握着我的手陪着我期待消失的彩虹是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴天灰了 快乐总有限期从来都陷在孤独的流沙里忘了我也配被人在意一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊还有什么值得追求还有什么可以拥有把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁能让我相信被爱的理由 难道结局冥冥之中早已设定了定局。。这就是最后的结果吗？让我相信自己还值得你来爱我求你，不要离开我。这世界是该有希望的不是吗？我也曾经相信过。。我并不是要你来爱我只希望自己不被遗忘陪我。我害怕孤独的感觉这并不是我。不是的。带我走。泪水是不应该流下的。。你还在意吗？或许，我只是一段回忆吧。
2:53 AM
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Sunday, May 24, 2009
YAY im back on blogger.. and im okayyy =] No worries kay all of u.
Anyway, yea... i figured out that i shudnt think too much already lol. i mean just try your best and leave everything to destiny liao lohh.. i mean.. lol bo bian sia! OK!
Anyway, Poly life is soooo bz bz bz bz.. im like BZ everyday..
So heres a note to all secondary school students (copied and pasted from Brenda's blog.. Dear hope you wun mind =P) so dear people.. read this carefully!!
Now that i think of it, i haven't actually done a Poly life evaluation!
I'm now going to list the misconceptions i had, and compare them to the truth!
Misconception 1:
Poly isn't stressful :D.Truth: Are you kidding me? Look at the way they're piling on the projects! I'll be buried under all of them soon.
Misconception 2:
YAY, no school uniforms!Truth: And i spend a good amount of time every morning picking out what clothes i should wear to school. It's pure agony!
Misconception 3:
Projects are fun! Truth: Trudging around creepy ulu areas whilst it's raining definitely ISNT fun. (Journalism news 1 project- i'm still suffering from the trauma of that experience).
Misconception 4:
Poly is fun, cause' Mass comms' is a fun course!Truth: Whoever told me
'Mass comms is a fun course!' was lying. Media Society is even more boring than staring into blank space.
BEYOND HERE ADDED BY SHERRAINE.
Misconception 5:
Being in Poly, school does not start so early!Truth: Right.... I have fwens staying in woodlands waking up 3 hrs before lecture.. lets seee... normal poly lessons start at 9 am.. so they wake up at 6am and take a 2 hr bus ride.. What you think?? Bus ride is such a boredom can~ Before u reach sch, i tink ur half dead or sth =[ and thats for going home too.
Misconception 6:
YAY freedom in poly...Truth: Hmm.. nahh.. although teachers will no longer chase you for work, but its like lol they dont even care.. Its all stated in black and whites in the student guide. Dont hand up any of the daily work = no marks given. You cant even dont do homework anymore WAHH!
Misconception 7:
oooh. no more canteens in Polys.Truth: Wrong.. I wonder why me and my fwens only had one meal in TP after how many months of schling....
Misconception 8:
i can sleep late at night, being on msn :)Truth.. HAH true.. probably rushing through all the journals and projects
LOL people.. figure it out urself man!!!
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Gotta applaud Brenda for this :)
Anyway.. yeps poly life isnt that much fun as you tink.. but well get used to it..
Exams comingg... lalala just one more week of school, 2 days of Exams and YAY hols!!!
HAIZ.. i tink im getting sway lately...
like i lose my phone like ytd ytd ytd.. =[ the red and black one..
lose all my contacts.. so people do msg me along wif ur name if ur contacting me for the first time after 19 May. :)
And lol u all shud be amazed that im not dead by now.. HAHA I had like fever on friday which was at about 39.8 degrees.. HAH doctor was like WAH i guess... he scared i got swine flu??? MWAHAH JKJK My mum was rite.. I dun get sick like get fever at 37.7 degrees or something.. i just shoot up high. MWAHAHA..
Anyway, i din go to school on friday and so monday have to go school early at 9am just to hand up stoooopid homework even though lessons start at 2pm!! :((
Oh, do note that parents letter are not allowed in Polys and only MCs are accepted.
Besides.. do remember to photocopy like at least 5 copies of your MC man! Nid to attach to homework one!!! LOL
Ok.... im getting a little bit feverish again.. so heres my blog ending..
Seeeee.. poly lifeeee.. sleepless nightss.. and so everyone ends up sick!
OH.. forgot to mention something.. I went to the doctor's on friday.. and cause i had fever, was asked to wear a mask.. STOOOPID H1N1.. then everyone in the clinic walked out of the clinic to wait at the entrance while i sit inside! OMG! kiasi LA!! i finalli noe how those doctors and nurses of TTSH last time felt during the SARS period.. COMEON LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok niteee.:P
2:16 AM
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Monday, May 11, 2009
我记得我曾经说过，自己不介意很多东西， 但也记得我曾经也为一样的事而哭过。
我记得我曾经说多，要乐观的面对一切， 却也不禁发现， 自己从来就没有那么坚强。
也许， 这并不是我自己一个人的行为。往往表面上越快乐的人， 心中也许是曾受过最多创伤的。就因为我们经过的太多， 所以才会在路程中也渐渐地忘了原本的自己。
看一看小时候的照片，却发现幼小的我， 虽然不会打扮，穿的衣服也没那么名贵， 但是当时的笑容却是最真实的。是否，经过越多， 就会失去越多？ 我并不知道。
我不知道自己到底有多爱自己，也许答案根本就无法令人相信， 会令人质疑。因为在你们面前的我，总是那么小孩子气。我知道，其实这样并不好。和别的人相比，我又能够有多少的怨言呢？有手，有脚，有家，有的吃，有的住，到底还能不快乐什么？
几年前的我，却实太幼稚，不够成熟，让大家都因为我而也感到困惑。 深深的要对那些人道歉。但是事到如今， 我还能靠谁，还能依赖谁？也许，太过习惯自己一个人的生活，我已忘了要如何处事待人，忘了要怎么去爱别人。
对不起
也许，除了梦想，我再也找不到别的推动力。
这可能就是我对梦想执着的原因。
来读我的博客的人因该都是非常了解我的人吧
我希望我不会影响大家。
这只是一瞬间的想法
没事的。。。
真的。。
放了爱。。为了爱。。
我的心为爱流离失所
紧握着回家的线索
当我找到真正的我
才证明我真的没有错
:) 又是新的一天。
有要面对一切。
i shall post about daily life soon.
no worries.
3:03 AM
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Monday, May 04, 2009
The attack of Swine Flu.Mexico's health secretary said the swine flu epidemic in his country "is in its declining phase," even as the disease extended its reach through Europe and Latin America with at least five countries reporting new cases Sunday. China quarantined more than 70 Mexican travelers and Hong Kong isolated 350 people in a hotel as a precaution even though no new swine flu infections appeared in Asia. In Egypt, authorities' attempt to kill all pigs as a precaution against the disease prompted pig owners to clash with police who were helping to seize their animals for slaughter. The death toll in Mexico remains at 19, and the number of confirmed cases has increased slightly, from 473 to 506, including the dead, Health Secretary Jose Angel Cordova said. He said "evolution of the epidemic is in its declining phase." Swine flu has also killed one toddler in the U.S. and has spread to 18 countries worldwide — but experts believe that the global spread is much wider.
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are u afraid?i mean, its like, its coming soon man.. LOLSARS was a bad enugh experience, i wonder when would this stop and when it would all be over.Its so irritating that the flu is working in the dark and theres like no perfect way that we can prevent of fight it. Nobody noes when it would be Singapore's turn or wad. How prepared are we? Im not sure. Its a mystery.Lets pray.Lets hope.And just do our part...I wonder if its possible if we sort of close up Singapore with the public/ world..Each country to control the epidemic first before opening up again..Hmm.. Although it may cause serious crisis on the economic side but... what if the spread gets worst?? Is the world seriously ending??Is it the end now??I haf no idea why i keep thinking about this qns.Is the world already ending.I dun exactly mean to be so pessimistic but.. hmm..what can we do..Temperature taking starts in schools.Perhaps there wun even be schooling soon..HAIZZ..Lets all hope for the best. :)Besides, life' s still moving on isnt it.Im chocolating too much lately.Chocolate makes me happy... or am i just self-psychoing.Poly life is so hectic and tiring...Too many projects to do.. im so not coping..Haidie lessons are ending, which means exams soon..Im not prepared.I dun like to do things when i am totally not confident of it.Im not that daring, not that adventurous.. I dun wanna try.Went for dinner just now, saw mrs lum and ms loh.Im missing PL man...Life out of there is scary..Leaving the sheltering walls of PL.I miss the way teachers bugged at us for homework.I miss the way we went in late for class.I miss the toilet sessions we had.I miss seeing everyone all around campus the whole time.I miss talking to u de way we did.I miss everything.I remembered i ever said this " i cant wait to leave PL and go poly"Hmm, freedom mite not neccesary be good eh?Some one.. help me.我不想逞强， 不想假笑， 不想带着面具。你听得到我的呐喊吗？你听得到我的心跳吗？你还看得到我吗？i wanna keep singing =(its merely just a dream...i told myself.
2:41 AM
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Tuesday, April 28, 2009
IM DAMN FUCKED UP...
CRAP!
LEAVE ME ALONE.
I JUST HAF TO BLAME IT ALL ON MY STUPIDITY.
AND I WONDER WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ABOUT IT.
DAMN IT.
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.
JUST SHUT UP.
2:43 AM
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Monday, April 20, 2009
On the verge of giving up.....
It seems like its getting no where.
It seems too far and im just not eligible for it.
No matter how hard i try.
No matter how i put a smile on my face.
Its not working out.
Tell me it'll come true, or i'll never dare to dream again.
Maybe it shudnt have ever been started on.
This journey. This life.
When will it be my turn.
Too vast.. Too far..
Its time to grow up.....
Yet, is it time to quit?
But its this world that scares me.
Im just a kid and life is a nightmare.
And.. im all alone..
11:57 PM
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Dancing by2 DNA lately.
HAH
Go darlinggg!! O.O
But that was after poly's orientation.Arrived early in the morn that day for orientation.. I tink TP just consists of suber crazy plus high plus fun ppl..The SLs were just so HIGH hahaha.. ok made some fwens :)Short intro:Kenzi, Deborah, Brenda, Liya, Melody and more more more. HAHAand i haf a nice CP too :)but lol just abit freaked by the strictness and the rules parts. WAKAKA.its been hot and sunny these dayss..... and im so excited and nervous for lessons that starts on Tues =p
err, anyway, today haidie-ed for etiquette lessons :) hmm i was late and super low cause i was having fever, slept late ytd and consumed panadol. HAHa, couldnt wake up this morning. but cabbed there :)hmm.. i tink i failed the class totally, from walking to introduction.. its all deemed as low-esteem WAKAKKAA. im so used to being defensive :( haha then after lessons we went to the MRT wif VS2 ppl too for dinner :)Fish beehoon... me favourite and had milk tea...Then we went K :)) to choose songs despite of my "close to no voice" state :)Sang Sang Sang.. and we ended the session wif me annie and zuxian singing superstar obviously me being Selina :P Ok...
then.... We went to Music Story to see see and had dinner at Chinatown..... HAHA
I tink im damn sway or sth, maybe cause i consumed chips at K and ate stingray/ou lua and Fishball noodles wif added chilli HAHA, my nose bled in the MRT and i was without tissue.I tink it was a horrendous sight HAHA but nobody cared abt me LOL, until ask for tissue from the old uncle sitting beside me :)He was nice enugh to pass me a stack of tissue...Silly me was thinking -" What if he take out his hankerchief" lol.. joke man.. :P
ok ok.. so i waited for my stop holding the tissue pinching my nose wif my head up.....Then theres this two, tourists i guess, malay.. one guy one girl that came into the cabin and the girl sat beside me....I was super irritated as she kept asking me to keep my bag to myself and asked me to shift.Also, she kept asking her hubby to take pictures for her and her taking pics of her hubby in the train... while im trying to stop my nose bleeding..
OMG HAHAHA
So "£!"%&£"%)"£*%&%£(&HAHAHAAHA :PPP
im all better now :)nid to slp early.... haha
heng tmr no sch,anyway nites ppl
2:28 AM
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